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Thu, 15 Mar 2012 22:00:25 -0400

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- never say never

hi...

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 21:17:03 -0400

hii...exel here (:

Today I have been aware. I should be more open my heart. perhaps, this conversation will help you.I just write what I remember

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 21:04:00 -0400

Me : “dad was said that i’m almost ready to be entrusted. he wasn’t aware if it’s too rein me “

grandpa : “that is bad news, if you don’t believe that you’re the only once that can be trusted”

me : “me? i mean. i’m not ready. i had my own dream. and i wasn’t meant to be there”

grandpa : “that’s no accident if he picked you and trust you. you are the sole property of their. all tey’ve done. they just did for you. you will never fulfill your destiny , not your fathers, until you let go of the illusion of your a while dream”

me : “my dream is just not only illusion! i’ve believe in it”

grandpa : “imagine about a peach tree in china. i it bear fruit before it’s time”

me : “but, we can control it. i can control. where to plant the seed”

grandpa : “well, but no matter what you do, that seed will grow to be a peach tree. you mas wish for an apple or an orange, but you will get a peach. just like your destiny, your parents have been lead you ino something that should really be your destiny. sometimes it’s difficult to understand and unfail. parents don’t always know best. but they can guide you on something much better. the best things, it’s not necerily the best for us”

me : “but, i’n not a tree. it can’t guide my heart”

grandpa : “maybe it can. if you are willing to guide it. to nurture it and to believe in it. just like on your dream. if in the first time you can do it, you can do ot once again. one day you’ll conmtinued your journey withour about me. you must learn to open your heart and stop being so selfish”

me : “but now? help me, granpa. i don’t want to hurt them with my words andmore. it’s enough i guess”

grandpa :”no, you just need to believe, exel. remember the first time you run away from home? at the moment, you’re only 10 years old. yo’re too angry with your parents and it has blinded you. they are very worried at all. you’re are their only son, they don’t have anyone else besides you. and now, so does radieffe family. they just have you. trust me my son, telented doesn’t mean lose out”

*and now i believe all of it

A Bad Day for Having a Cup Tea

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 03:40:49 -0400

Cambrigdeshire, January, 26th 2012

that morning my parents came from Westminster. i invited some of my close friends from King’s College and Trinitas College for a cup of tea together. there are Derric, Bryan, And Theresia. You know the reanson I invited them, I intend to reduce my suffering, I mean todistract them so as not restrain me too. a little bad, maybe, but i’m sure you’ll do the same thing with me. yeah forget it. there are some chocolateballs on the table. looks very delicious. a perfect day to gather with them. who knows? it was a mostunfortunate and embarrassing dar for me.

It’s begins with,

me : I’m single in this Valentine

Derrick : Wdyt about me ? I;m single too, since 4 years ago

me : poor you

my dad : talking about mate, are you ready to get married at age 20 ?

i didn’t say anything. i was very surprised and swallowed a ball chocolate that i haven’t chew into my throat. you can imagine how much it hurt. short stories, i’m choking, but no one helped me at that time. they just looked at my face expression which turned to purpel.

and maybe the most laughable things is my mother know that i’m choking, but she didn’t help, she just patted my dad shoulder and still looking at me with a plain face.

till my dad said : forget it !

then he go out from the kitchen and carrying his cup of tea. yeah this lol channe is about me-_-

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Thu, 15 Mar 2012 03:07:52 -0400

DAMN !!!